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Broken Armor

Is this my reality
of broken heroes
and knightless realms
to go beyond the borders
of kingdoms blasted with
tyranny. Tainted to the soul
with nothing but dishonor.
What is my reality,
Lancelot’s betrayal, becoming
the plague that is sown within
the land of electricity
conveniently lighting the path
of twists and turns, making
no honest men to which
a woman can succor behind.
The weak wither away
nothing is done, they are
an inconvenience.
Hungering foes
disloyal husbands
where chivalry is a crack-pot
tincture of comedy as it
bounces around the table like
an appetizer never consumed
only reminisced as ladies turn
whores, and men turn steeds
as they mount the very nature
that they sought to be rid of
that Gulliver so true fought.
Blurred wisdom intoxicated with
lust over defense, to shield
honor as wrought as mine chain-mail.
Sorrow in our brothers, in our sisters
as they weep the world that is inherited
by bullied pretenders,
sullied wizards-
We are the knight, but have been lost
to the night as it consumes the essence
of a human heart and its grace among
the universe
injected with the expedient ecstasy
of a dozen sweeping kisses
to experience all flavors
letting not one drop register
a potent taste on your tongue.
The shine of your black knight tarnishes away
as the black steed atop the mountain crest
crumbles to the earth –
replaced by a pale horse.


by: Patrick Bairamian

From: rogue

The Ticket

We get to enjoy all these things – emotions,  wealth , and power. We can dabble in all of them – we can become any one thing. The only price that existence asks is for life. We must cash in our ticket for this roller coaster of a ride – our ups, our downs, our screams, our euphoria – we must stand in line before the existence of this experience. Not knowing what to expect, for those feelings do not exist within us yet. Those memories which we will make do not compute, for we have no means to make them compute. Then, our turn comes, and we sit in those seats. We’re strapped in to our chairs, and locked into our places. We rise to the drop, we climb to the peak. And before we drop, we become a void of memory where we know nothing of what to expect. Then we drop, into this world of twists and turns, never knowing when to hang on, or when to throw our hands into the air and scream with excitement, or grip the bars with terror. We go through and through these ups and downs, soon finding ourselves to understand the drops ahead, a little bit wiser, and a little more prepared. By the end of the ride we are exhausted and indifferent. We see the ride, with all its hot rails, and glory. We descend and slow on the rails. We approach the same darkness we came from before the lurch of the cart and start of the ride. We see new faces. We see the excitement of those standing in line, eager to give their ticket for that chance to feel what we have experienced. We see faces. Some full of fright, some full of excitement, and some full of bewildering blankness – but, they all maintain to be full of the same life  that we who have ridden the roller coaster:  had, have, and for the next moment until we get off this ride to allow for the new generation of riders, still linger with.  Behind our eyes we feel wiser with this experience. They ask us in the moment, how it was. What to expect. Any tips from our battle stripes of knowledge- and in the moment as we are pushed down the exit lane, we answer as many as we can. We had no time to contemplate it. We had no time, except that moment until we saw the ending to understand it. We had analysis of its effect on us as a whole. We simply rode the roller coaster that is our life, and we had our experience – our own, our own, our own – experience. And, now, as we turn our backs to the humming excitement and growling stomachs about to enter the drop of  the roller coaster we have stepped off, we turn around for one last smile, and one last glimpse of the ride we have just witnessed – first hand on the edge. Some of us smile, some of us linger quietly, some of us laugh – but all of us keep moving along – exiting just the same – and remember the Summer rays and blast of cool wind  blowing in our face before the drop.


By: Patrick Bairamian

Mr. Ara – A Human Comedy

 Mr. Ara

By: William Saroyan;
excerpt from his novel: A Human Comedy

ONE BY ONE the members of August Gotflieb’s Secret Society returned from their escape from old man Henderson and gathered in front of Ara’s Market to wait there for the arrival of their leader. At last the great man was observed by his devoted followers coming around the alley holding the hand of Ulysses Macauley. The members of the Society waited silently for the arrival of the leader, who was soon among them. The face of the leader was searched by each of the followers and then the one named Alf Rife said, “Did you get an apricot, Auggie?”

The leader looked at this faithless one and said, “You don’t have to ask that. You saw me in the tree. You know I got an apricot.”
Now, all the members spoke in one voice. (All, that is, excepting Lionel, who was not really a member at all.) They said with great admiration, “Let’s see it, Auggie. Let’s see the apricot”
The little boy Ulysses watched everything, still completely unsure of the mysterious values involved but still certain that whatever these values might be they were surely of greater importance than anything else in the world-at that moment, at any rate.
“Let’s see the apricot you stole, Auggie,” the members of the Society said again. “Come on, let’s see it.”
August Gottfieb quietly fished into the pocket of his overalls and brought out a clenched fist which he thrust before him. His followers gathered around and looked directly upon the fist When everyone was appropriately quiet and respectful, August Gottlieb opened his fist.
There in the palm of his hand was a small green apricot the size of a quail egg.
The followers of the great religious leader smiled at the miraculous object in the palm of his hand, and Lionel-the kindest of them all, even though he was not a bona-fide member of the religious sect-lifted Ulysses so that he too could see the small green object. Having seen the green apricot, Ulysses squirmed, got down, and then ran for home, not disappointed, only eager to tell someone.

Now, out of his store, stepped Ara himself, the man who had established Ara’s Market in this neighborhood of Ithaca, California, seven years ago. He was a tall, lean-faced. melancholy yet comical man who wore a white grocer’s apron over his plain business suit. He stood a moment on the small porch of the store to look down at the new Messiah and his disciples and to listen to their delighted expressions of adoration for the Holy Image.
“Anggie, you!” he said. “You, Shag! Nickie! Alfo, you! Lionel, you!-what you call this? United States Congress Washington? Go some odder place hold important meeting. This market, not Congress.”
“Oh, sure, Mr. Ara,” August Gotflieb said. “We’ll go across the street to the empty lot. Do you want to see an apricot?”
“You got apricot?” the grocer said. “Where you get apricot?”
“Off a tree. Want to see it?”
“Is not apricot now. Apricot come in two more month. In May time.”
“This is a March apricot,” the leader of the whirling-dervishes said to the grocer. Again he opened his fist, revealing the small hard green object. “Look at it, Mr. Ara,” Auggie said, and then paused. “Pretty?”
“All right, all right,” Mr. Ara said. “Pretty. Very fine apricot. Now, go hold meeting United States Congress Washington some odder place. Today Saturday. Market open for business. Don’t crowd small store first thing in morning. Give chance. Small store get scared, run away.”
“O.K., Mr. Ara,” Auggie said, “we won’t crowd your store. We’ll go across the street now. Come on, you guys.” Mr. Ara watched the small migration of the religious fanatics. He was about to go back into the store when a small boy who resembled him came out of the store and stood beside him.
“Hah, John?”
“Give me apple,” The boy said to the man. He spoke earnestly, almost sadly.
The father took the son by the hand and together they went into the store to the counter where the fresh fruit was stacked in piles.
“Apple?” the father said to the boy. He took an apple from the pile-the very best apple in the pile-and handed it to the boy. “All right, apple.”

The father went behind the counter of his store to wait for a customer, and in the meantime to look upon his son, surely as melancholy as himself, even though there was a difference of at least forty years in their ages. The son took one enormous bite out of the apple, chewed it slowly, swallowed it, and then for a moment seemed to think about it, while the father himself thought about it, too. The apple did not make the boy happy. He put it down on the counter in front of his father and then looked up at the man. There they were, in Ithaca, California, probably seven thousand miles from what had been for centuries their home in the world. Naturally there was a loneliness in each of them, but no one could know for sure that the same loneliness might not be in them had they been seven thousand miles away, back home. There on the floor of his store stood the father’s son, and the father looked at the son-at his own face in the boy, his own eyes, and beyond the eyes surely his own character. There was the same man, only younger. The father took the rejected apple, attacked it with an enormous crackling bite, and stood chewing and swallowing. He might have been tragic Lear himself, judging from the swiftness and noisiness of his stentorian chewing. An apple was too good a thing in the world to be wasted, and therefore if his son would not eat it, then he must eat it, even though he had no passion for apples or for their flavor. He simply knew that it was wrong to waste anything. He continued to bite into the apple, to chew, and to swallow, as if in dramatic soliloquy. At last, however, it was a little too much-there was a little too much apple. It would be necessary to waste some of it. With recklessness and perhaps a small amount of regret, he flung the remains of the apple into the garbage can.

Now, the son spoke again.
“Hah, John?”
“Give me orange.”
The father selected the biggest orange in the neat pile of oranges and handed it to the boy. “Orange? All right-orange.”
The boy bit into the peel of the orange, then began to finish the job of peeling with his fingers, working slowly but efficiently at first but after a moment accelerating his effort with such an intensity that even the father began to feel, as surely the son felt, that beneath the peeling of this growth of tree would be not simply the flesh of an orange but the heart’s final fulfillment The boy placed the peelings of the orange on the counter in front of the man, broke the orange in half, peeled off one section, put it in his mouth, chewed and swallowed. But alas, no. It was truly an orange, but it was truly not the heart’s final fulfillment. The son waited a moment, then put the rest of the orange in front of his father. Again the father took up the unfinished work and silently began trying to finish it But soon the limit was reached, and a little less than half of the orange went into the garbage can.
“Papa?” the boy said after a moment, and again the father replied,
“Hah, John?”
“Give me candy.”
“Candy? All right-candy.”

From the candy showcase the father selected the most popular five-cent bar of candy and handed it to the boy. The boy studied this manufactured substance, removed the wax paper, and took a big bite out of the chocolate-covered candy and again slowly chewed and swallowed. But again it was nothing-only candy-sweet, yes; otherwise, nothing, truly nothing. Once again the son returned to the father another substance of the world which had failed to bring him completion. Patiently the father accepted the responsibility-to avoid waste. He picked up the candy bar, started to bite into it and then changed his mind. He turned and flung the candy into the garbage can. He felt bitterly angry, and in his heart he cursed some people seven thousand miles away who had once seemed to him to be inhuman, or at least ignorant Those dogs!l he said.
“Hah, John?”
“Give me banana.”
The father sighed this time but did not abandon all faith. “Banana? All right-banana.” He examined the bunch of bananas hanging over the piles of fruit and finally discovered what he believed to be the ripest and the sweetest banana of the bunch. He plucked this banana off the bunch and handed it to the boy.

At last a customer came into the store. The customer was a man Mr. Ara had never before seen. The storekeeper and the customer nodded to one another in greeting, and then the man said with an accent all his own, “You got cookies?
“Cook-ies?” the grocer said eagerly. “What kind cook-ies you want?”
Another customer came into the store. This customer was Ulysses Macauley. He stood to one side, listening and watching, waiting his turn.
“You got cookies, raisins in?” the man said to the grocer.
“Cook-ies, raisins in?” the grocer said. This was a problem. “Cook-ies, raisins in,” he said again, almost whispering. “Cook-ies, raisins in,” he said still again. The grocer looked around the store. The grocer’s son put the banana on the counter in front of his father-rejected.
The father looked at the boy and then spoke very swiftly. “You want apple, I give you apple. You want orange, I give you orange. You want candy, I give you candy. You want banana, I give you banana. What you want now?”
“Cookies,” the boy said.
“What kind cook-ies you want?” the father said to the boy, not forgetting the customer, and in fact, speaking to the customer, but at the same time speaking to his son, and at the same time speaking to everybody, everywhere-everybody wanting things.
“Cookies, raisins in,” the boy said.

With furious restraint the father almost whispered his reply to his son, but instead of looking at his son he looked at the customer. “I got no cook-ies,” he whispered. “No kind cook-ies. Why you want cook-ies? I got everything, but no cook-ies. What’s cook-ies? What you want?”
“Cookies,” the man said patiently, “for small boy.”
“I got no cook-ies,” the grocer said again. “I got small boy too.” The grocer pointed to his own son. “I give him apple, orange, candy, banana, lots of good things.” He looked the customer straight in the eye, and almost as if he were angry, he said, again, “What you want?”
“My broder’s boy,” the customer said. “He’s got influenza. He cry-he want cookies. ‘Cookies, raisins in,’he say.”

But every man lives his own life and every life has its own theme, so that again the grocer’s son looked at his father and said, “Papa?”
But now the father refused to look at the boy. Instead, he looked at the man whose nephew was ill and wanted cookies with raisins in them. He looked at the man with understanding, with sympathy, and yet with a kind of peasant rage, not against the man but against the world itself, against illness, against pain, against loneliness, against the heart wanting what it can never have. The grocer was angry at himself too because even though he had established this market in Ithaca, California, seven thousand miles from home, he did not have cookies with raisins in them,he did not have that which the sick boy wanted. The grocer pointed at his son and spoke to the man.
“Apple” the grocer said, “orange, candy, banana-no cookies. He’s my boy. Three years old. Not sick. He want many things. I don’t know what he want. Nobody know what he want He just want. He look at God. He say. Give me dis, give me dat-but he never satisfied. Always he want. Always he feel bad. Poor God has got nothing for such sadness. He give everything – world – sunshine -moder – fader – broder – sister – onkle – cousin – house, farm, stove, table, bed-poor God give everything-but nobody happy-everybody like small boy sick with influenza-everybody say give me cookies-raisins in.” The grocer stopped a moment to take a very deep breath. When he exhaled he said very loudly to the customer, “Is no cookies-raisins in.”
The grocer began to move with an impatience and a fury which were almost majestic. First he took a paper bag and snapped it open. Then he began to toss things into the bag. “Here’s orange, very pretty. Here’s apple. Wonderful. Here’s banana. Taste very good.” Now, gently, and with great courtesy and sincere sympathy for the man and for the man’s sick nephew, the grocer handed the bag to the customer. “Take to little boy. No pay. I no want money.” And then again he said very softly, ‘Is no cookies, raisins in.”
“He cry,” the man said. “He feel very bad. He say, ‘Cookies, raisins in.’ Thank you very much, but we already give small boy apple, orange, odder things.” The man put the bag down on the counter. “Sick boy say, ‘Give me cookies, raisins in.’ Apple, orange-no good. Excuse me, I go try chain store. Maybe they got cookies, raisins in.”
“All right, my friend,” the grocer whispered. “You go try chain store-but they no got cookies, raisins in. Nobody got.”
Almost shyly the stranger left the store. For a full minute the grocer stood behind the counter staring at his son. Suddenly he began to speak in his own language, Armenian.
“The world’s gone mad,” he said. “In Russia alone, so near our own country, our own beautiful little nation, millions of people, millions of children, every day go hungry. They are cold, pathetic, barefooted- They walk around-no place to sleep-they pray for a piece of dry bread-somewhere to lie down and rest-one night of peaceful sleep. And what about us? What do we do? Here we are in Ithaca, California, in this great country, America. What do we do? We wear good clothes. We put on good shoes every morning when we get up from sleep. We walk around with no one in the streets to come with guns or to burn our houses or to murder our children or brothers of fathers. We take rides out into the country in automobiles. We eat the best food. Every night when we go to bed we sleep-and then what are we? We arc discontented. We are sfitt discontented.” The grocer shouted this amazing truth at his little son with terrible love for the boy. “Apple,” he said, “orange, candy, banana, for God’s sake, little fellow, don’t do this! If I do it, you are my son, better than me, and therefore you must not do this. Be happy! Be happy! I am unhappy, but you must be happy.” He pointed to the back door of the store which led into the house, and obediently, very sober-faced, the little boy left the store and entered the house.

Now the grocer spent a moment trying to compose himself. At last he believed he was calm enough to speak quietly to the customer in the store, Ulysses Macauley. He turned to the boy and tried to be cheerful. He even smiled. “What you want, little boy Ulysses?”
“What kind mush you want?”
“Two kinds H-0, little boy Ulysses. “Regular kind, and quick-cooking kind. Two kinds. Slow, quick. Old, new. What kind your mama want, little boy Ulysses?”
Ulysses thought about this a moment and then said, “H-0.”
“Old kind or new kind?”
But the little boy didn’t know, so the grocer decided for him. “All right, new kind, modern. Eighteen cents, please, little boy Ulysses.”
Ulysses opened his fist and thrust his arm out toward the grocer, who took the quarter from the boy’s hand. The grocer handed Ulysses the change, saying, “Eighteen cents, nineteen, twenty, and nickel-twenty-five. Thank you, little boy Ulysses.”
“You’re welcome, Mr. Ara,” Ulysses said. He took the package of oatmeal and walked out of the store. It was very difficult to understand anything. First it was apricots on a tree, then it was cookies with raisins in, and then it was the grocer talking to his son in a strange tongue-but even so it was exciting. In the street the little boy kicked up his heel as he did whenever he was pleased, and began to run home.

By: William Saroyan;
excerpt from his novel: A Human Comedy, where ‘Mr. Ara is a chapter midway through the book.

William Saroyan was a prolific American novelist of Armenian descent during the early 20th century.  His works are renown for their organic explanation of the human condition, and allowing for a simplified analysis into the reality of our own existence. His works include over 30 novels, and over 20 plays, some of which are presently studied in middle and high-school curriculums. Some of his works include the Pulitzer Prize winning novel – The Time of Your Life (1939) – which he subsequently refused the honor of, on the grounds that the “arts should not be commercialized.”  Many of his works have been adapted into films, such as Hello Out There (1941)The Human Comedy (1943), and Man on the Flying Trapeze (1934). Saroyan was a proud Armenian-American who consistently drew upon the theme of assimilation into the American culture inspired by his upbringing as a child of Armenian immigrants.

The Fisherman & The Businessman

An American businessman took a vacation to a small coastal Mexican village on doctor’s orders. Unable to sleep after an urgent phone call from the office the first morning, he walked out to the pier to clear his head. A small boat with just one fisherman had docked, and inside the boat were several large yellowfin tuna. The American complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish.

“How long did it take you to catch them?” the American asked.

“Only a little while,” the Mexican replied in surprisingly good English.

“Why don’t you stay out longer and catch more fish?” the American then asked.

“I have enough to support my family and give a few to friends,” the Mexican said as he unloaded them into a basket.

“But… What do you do with the rest of your time?”

The Mexican looked up and smiled. “I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take a siesta with my wife, Julia, and stroll into the village each evening, where I sip wine and play guitar with my amigos. I have a full and busy life, senor.”

The American laughed and stood tall. “Sir, I’m a Harvard M.B.A. and can help you. You should spend more time fishing, and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat. In no time, you could buy several boats with the increased haul. Eventually, you would have a fleet of fishing boats.”

He continued, “Instead of selling your catch to a middleman, you would sell directly to the consumers, eventually opening your own cannery. You would control the product, processing, and distribution. You would need to leave this small coastal fishing village, of course, and move to Mexico City, then to Los Angeles, and eventually to New York City, where you could run your expanded enterprise with proper management.”

The Mexican fisherman asked, “But, senor, how long will all this take?”

To which the American replied, “15-20 years, 25 tops.”

“But what then, senor?”

The American laughed and said, “That’s the best part. When the time is right, you would announce an IPO and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich. You would make millions.”

“Millions senor? Then what?”

“Then you would retire and move to a small coastal fishing village, where you would sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take a siesta with your wife, and stroll in to the village in the evenings where you could sip wine and play your guitar with your amigos.”

  • Source Unknown. From some basic research, we found that an author named Courtney Carver wrote it on her blog in 2010.

Be Bold.

I’ve got this set of guidelines I keep in my journal. I wrote it nearly three years ago. Each point was the culmination of certain truths I saw as necessary for one to live their life in the most robust way possible. In their conversations. In the way they worked. In the way they explored the mysteries and routines found in the everyday of their lives. There were four points. It won’t always stay at four, but it’s not a list that is easily added to, for they represent truths about life that are universal, and truths that cannot be excused. Truths that have lines of grey and can be bent are no truths at all, and are not included.

One of these I’d like to mention here, is the very first one. A truth I found to be the most honest in enjoying a full breath, and overall breadth of life.

In all your actions, be bold.

I became interested around twelve, or the time of a pubescent teen absorbing anything different in life to stand out. The phrase: Audentes fortuna iuvat comes to mind. I repeated it before I knew what the words meant. It just sounded cool because it was Latin. Then I got to high school.

Talk about a typhoon of emotions, cliques, friendships, romance, pride, domination struggle, and socializing. I failed at most. I exceeded in pretending. I’ve always held a fake smile for the world. It was easier for me to invest little in them, but get by until I reach the shore. But I never knew what the shore was, or where it was – I just swam along with my personalities, and smiles. They were some empty years from the inside. I left high-school with few friends, and even less memories of great times and cherished events. This was my mistake. I spent so much time pretending, that I never stood steadfast behind my own personality.

You’re going to have a lot of enemies in life. Some you know about, others that operate in the shadows. Giving ‘defeat’ the advantage by making yourself the enemy from within is a surefire way to lose the war before it has been fought.

Fast forward.

Being bold isn’t a task – it’s a philosophy. To be bold, you must first define what the word means, and all it encompasses. Bold – being, showing confidence; not afraid; lack of fear.

Some confuse boldness with aggression and crass behavior. In order to be bold, from what they say and how they act, one must be relentless – a brute. These confusions are not mutations of boldness, they are their own behaviors. To be bold is to be confident in what you say because that which is behind your actions is that which reigns true in your soul. One cannot adopt boldness, you must become it, and be it – just like the skin wrapped around your flesh and bones.

Be bold in your actions, because everything in life that is worth it to you, should be given your all. There is simply no time in life for anything less than your very best. To understand this is to realize that you will die one day. Take a moment to read that sentence again slowly, and carefully. It is a bold and simple statement. Read it with difficulty, read with fear, read it with caution. But read it, and realize it.

Now ask yourself again why you are holding yourself back from certain things. Don’t ask all at once, you’ll never answer correctly or in full. But ask in each situation nonetheless.

Ask before, during and after a conversation. Before, during, and after a casual meeting, a professional meeting, a romantic meeting. Then answer.

Answer why you haven’t told them (them is different for you all) that you love having them in your life. That they make you happy. That if there was one person that understood them, that could connect with you, it was them. Tell them.

Answer why you haven’t told your boss how to do some task better, even when you have the evidence in front of you! Answer why you haven’t engaged in the growth of your own career because you’ve listened to 30 year veterans in the industry that say: “in time, just play it safe.” Or, “we’ve always done it like this.” Being bold has nothing to do with playing it safe. It has to do with giving something your everything, your all. Not when the odds are stacked up against you. In boldness, odds are for the boldless to contemplate. If it feels right to you – act boldly.

Examples abound, with an endless surplus to be provided – I must stop here. For boldness is no longer a word after one accepts it – it is a way of life. It is a way to live a life where your curiosities are explored, when your emotions are expressed and felt, and how your feeling of contemplation and anxiety are put to rest by your decision to plunge forward and break through those walls of doubt.

In your actions, be bold. Your life deserves nothing less.